it's official

i'm definitely student teaching this semester.

i got an e-mail from the school this morning saying that my application had been approved. i knew it was coming, but i was NOT expecting the emotions that took over in less than a second.

i'm incredibly sad. my college life will be over in a few months. everything that has been familiar, comfortable, and routine will no longer be there. i won't sit in the university center with the girls and talk about our schedules, our private lives, our not-so-private problems. i won't sit next to kasey in choir (why this hits me now instead of when she graduated is beyond me). i won't be able to see the basketball games for free. this is the last time i'll have an entire month off for christmas, unless i get a job right away. why, when i can see the light at the end of this really long tunnel called college, do i feel like crying?

i'm incredibly nervous. i know i've gone through field experiences before, but i'm pretty sure it's nothing like student teaching. what if i find out i'm not cut out for it? what if i'm the worst student teacher ever? what if something keeps me from graduating? or worse, what if i get into student teaching only to find out that i don't really like teaching? um.....

i'm incredibly excited. i finally graduate in december! i've been here for uh...awhile now, and it's time to move on. for a few months after changing my major, i was really mad at myself for not going into education right out of high school. but if i had done that, i wouldn't have the friends i have now. i never would have worked in the art & music department and met jaxine and dr. scott. i would be deprived of so many memories that i now hold dear. they are memories i will hold onto when i enter this new phase of my life. i have no clue what i will be doing, but i know that God will be by my side through it all.